It's still the weekend...
May. 15th, 2004 01:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pyxaronNow that i'm more awake and had my slush, i think today was great.
When i look at it... I spent the day getting paid to sleep and surf the web while doing absolutely no work. I spent at least 2 hours talking with one of my old teacher that came to see how the intern was doing, and two more hours talking with a friend of the intern. That friend, surprisingly, is a wrestler too. They're EVERYWHERE. And then i went back home, and slept until 8h30.
And i got paid 45$ to do that, plus some fries and an orange juice. I think i like that job again.
... i think i'm unable to think negatively of something for more than a day ...
I'm happy i got to talk with that teacher again. I never had course with him, but he was really the most qualified one in the school. And another Linux/Open source fan. I showed him some stuff about Apache and MySQL/PHP, and now he wants me to go give a course about that at school... Could be an interesting idea. And it's kinda fun to hear what happened at the school on the teacher's side since i finished.
It's weird. Two years ago i was scared to death of going in front of the class, and now i think the idea of going back there as a teacher could be fun. I'm changing... Probably a good thing.
And the intern's friend was fun to talk to too. He came here to test some motherboard he found cheap while the boss wasn't here. He's normally at MicroBytes, but they don't allow him to test his own hardware there. And apparently, that store is worse than ours for reparations. Apparently, they're always selling refurbished or RMA returns as new hardware. Almost 2/3 of what they sell comes back in the following week. They do the "fix one piece, break another" thing. They put virus in people's computers...
It looks like if he was exagerating, but seeing how we work, it wouldn't surprise me at all if it was true. And after looking at some stuff i got from that store, or at what some customers said it's probably true.
And apparently he's a wrestler too. Everyone is these day it seems... I know two customers who say they wrestle in local fed, my brothers and sister are wrestlers, an friend from high school became one, and apparently some other person in MonFur is too...
I really hope the air conditioner will be fixed next week. The temperature went above 30c in the store. For the first time, i really appreciated these old cold metal chairs we had in the back of the store.
What else....
Not really anything i can think of.
For some reason, i'm really excited about tomorrow. No idea why. I have nothing at all planned. I'll probably just end up rolling at the other end of Montréal. I don't know why simply not being at home is so much fun. Maybe something else will happen anyway. Things do that often.
I have three day to waste, 85$ and a bicycle. Should be fun.
And i'll post this. Out of idea what else to write. I think i like that win32 client. You can leave it on, forget about it and come back to finish your post later.
No, maybe something else.
Re-reading that post made me think about that. Two years ago, i couldn't get an message without getting scared and pulling the plug. When i started working, i was shaking everytime i was talking with customers. But i noticed that over the last year, mostly the last few months, that almost completely changed.
I'm kinda looking at the current situation and wondering what just happened. I'm not entirely changed, i still get kinda nervous, but i'm not afraid of talking to new people anymore. I'm able to start conversations. I actually went to the MonFur furmeet and this time i wasn't too scared to say anything.
It's funny, i always thought that to get less afraid of people i would need to learn to do something... I don't really know. Something like learning how to make that feeling you get when you're going to talk to people not scare you.
But what really happened is that i kinda stopped caring. Not that i stopped caring about people, but i stopped caring if i was going to talk to people or talk to myself. A "just say whatever you feel like saying" thing. It's far from working all the time, but it's getting better. I'm just kinda surprised. And disapointed in some way. I was expecting some big revelation. Something that i would learn and say "Wow, so that's how all these people did it all the time!". Not just noticing that i'm talking with someone about something totally pointless without being nervous.
I guess it's only the result that counts. ... i still kinda miss the adrenaline rush from being scared.
It's annoying how many things happen like that in life. Finishing highschool, getting a diploma, getting a job... Before all that, it looked like a huge thing, something you thought you would look foward to and remember all your life. But all that stuff happened almost without me noticing. Things just follow eachother, and then you look back and see all what you did. And it all seems like nothing at all.
The funny thing is that what ends up huge things that i'll probably remember all my life are things that i didn't expect to remember. Often spontaenous things. Random things that just happened, or things that i just woke up on morning and decided to do.
... when i think about it, when did i start being able to write what i think directly in english?
Anyway... I should go to bed. If i want to do things tomorrow, i should sleep first. Why do i want pizza.
Goodnight.
Wow, i really can't shut up today.
Posting.... NOW!
...
Haha. Not really. ... shut up and go to bed. But i don't want to. It's an order. NO! I WILL NOT TAKE ORDERS! I WILL FIGHT THE SYSTEM! *thwack* ... goodnight.
(Sorry, i'm not always like that. Unless you like it. Then i'm not sorry... Whatever. Slush does weird things to your brain.)
... i should spellcheck that thing before posting it. No, shut up and sleep. Ok.
When i look at it... I spent the day getting paid to sleep and surf the web while doing absolutely no work. I spent at least 2 hours talking with one of my old teacher that came to see how the intern was doing, and two more hours talking with a friend of the intern. That friend, surprisingly, is a wrestler too. They're EVERYWHERE. And then i went back home, and slept until 8h30.
And i got paid 45$ to do that, plus some fries and an orange juice. I think i like that job again.
... i think i'm unable to think negatively of something for more than a day ...
I'm happy i got to talk with that teacher again. I never had course with him, but he was really the most qualified one in the school. And another Linux/Open source fan. I showed him some stuff about Apache and MySQL/PHP, and now he wants me to go give a course about that at school... Could be an interesting idea. And it's kinda fun to hear what happened at the school on the teacher's side since i finished.
It's weird. Two years ago i was scared to death of going in front of the class, and now i think the idea of going back there as a teacher could be fun. I'm changing... Probably a good thing.
And the intern's friend was fun to talk to too. He came here to test some motherboard he found cheap while the boss wasn't here. He's normally at MicroBytes, but they don't allow him to test his own hardware there. And apparently, that store is worse than ours for reparations. Apparently, they're always selling refurbished or RMA returns as new hardware. Almost 2/3 of what they sell comes back in the following week. They do the "fix one piece, break another" thing. They put virus in people's computers...
It looks like if he was exagerating, but seeing how we work, it wouldn't surprise me at all if it was true. And after looking at some stuff i got from that store, or at what some customers said it's probably true.
And apparently he's a wrestler too. Everyone is these day it seems... I know two customers who say they wrestle in local fed, my brothers and sister are wrestlers, an friend from high school became one, and apparently some other person in MonFur is too...
I really hope the air conditioner will be fixed next week. The temperature went above 30c in the store. For the first time, i really appreciated these old cold metal chairs we had in the back of the store.
What else....
Not really anything i can think of.
For some reason, i'm really excited about tomorrow. No idea why. I have nothing at all planned. I'll probably just end up rolling at the other end of Montréal. I don't know why simply not being at home is so much fun. Maybe something else will happen anyway. Things do that often.
I have three day to waste, 85$ and a bicycle. Should be fun.
And i'll post this. Out of idea what else to write. I think i like that win32 client. You can leave it on, forget about it and come back to finish your post later.
No, maybe something else.
Re-reading that post made me think about that. Two years ago, i couldn't get an message without getting scared and pulling the plug. When i started working, i was shaking everytime i was talking with customers. But i noticed that over the last year, mostly the last few months, that almost completely changed.
I'm kinda looking at the current situation and wondering what just happened. I'm not entirely changed, i still get kinda nervous, but i'm not afraid of talking to new people anymore. I'm able to start conversations. I actually went to the MonFur furmeet and this time i wasn't too scared to say anything.
It's funny, i always thought that to get less afraid of people i would need to learn to do something... I don't really know. Something like learning how to make that feeling you get when you're going to talk to people not scare you.
But what really happened is that i kinda stopped caring. Not that i stopped caring about people, but i stopped caring if i was going to talk to people or talk to myself. A "just say whatever you feel like saying" thing. It's far from working all the time, but it's getting better. I'm just kinda surprised. And disapointed in some way. I was expecting some big revelation. Something that i would learn and say "Wow, so that's how all these people did it all the time!". Not just noticing that i'm talking with someone about something totally pointless without being nervous.
I guess it's only the result that counts. ... i still kinda miss the adrenaline rush from being scared.
It's annoying how many things happen like that in life. Finishing highschool, getting a diploma, getting a job... Before all that, it looked like a huge thing, something you thought you would look foward to and remember all your life. But all that stuff happened almost without me noticing. Things just follow eachother, and then you look back and see all what you did. And it all seems like nothing at all.
The funny thing is that what ends up huge things that i'll probably remember all my life are things that i didn't expect to remember. Often spontaenous things. Random things that just happened, or things that i just woke up on morning and decided to do.
... when i think about it, when did i start being able to write what i think directly in english?
Anyway... I should go to bed. If i want to do things tomorrow, i should sleep first. Why do i want pizza.
Goodnight.
Wow, i really can't shut up today.
Posting.... NOW!
...
Haha. Not really. ... shut up and go to bed. But i don't want to. It's an order. NO! I WILL NOT TAKE ORDERS! I WILL FIGHT THE SYSTEM! *thwack* ... goodnight.
(Sorry, i'm not always like that. Unless you like it. Then i'm not sorry... Whatever. Slush does weird things to your brain.)
... i should spellcheck that thing before posting it. No, shut up and sleep. Ok.
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Date: 2004-05-15 12:25 am (UTC)But I'm not dissapointed in it, I still think it's a huge accomplishment.. and I hope to feel the same way about future accomplishments that seem like a huge deal to me now :)
Oh, and the end of that entry gave me a chuckle. *grin*
I should shut up and sleep too!
Hmm, slush. Thirsty. x.x
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Date: 2004-05-15 02:00 am (UTC)... not just notice that i stopped caring about it a while ago.
It's wonderful to be able to talk to people now, and it is really helping. There's still a lot of progress to do there, but i'm really starting to like it.
I hope that kind of thing will happen again in the future again too. But it would still be fun to have something happen, something you can talk about and show to people instead of something that went away. But it's still good that way, as long as the results are there.
... and i need somewhere to get slush after midnight here. Reading my own post and this reply made me want one again.