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I attract spiders, for some reason.

I'm trying to sleep. No matter where i put the spiders in the room , they all come back to climb on me.

At least they don't scare me...

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Random post about stuff.

I'm starting to get annoyed with the whole mate thing again. Yeah, i'm happy about people who found the one and blah, but it's annoying how it seems to make people disappear. It seems that way too often, as soon as people find "the right one", they want to cut off everyone else and just spend time with them. I guess in some way it's normal, but blah...

I can't help but get the impression that eventually, all my friends will find someone, and i'm going to be the one left there, because i don't do the whole "girlfriend/boyfriend/mate/etc" thing.

Which is another thing that is kinda annoying. It seems that most people who will come to me seem to see me either as a tech ressource, or as a potential mate. People who come to me seeing me as tech ressource usually aren't exactly the people who make good friends, or who would be supportive or anything. They just want something, and will do RP/random talking and blah more in a "payback" kind of way... And the people who come to see me as potential mate often seem really nice and stuff at first, then find out i'm not really one who could be their mate, either because of the non-yiffyness or various other reason, and seem to lose interest in me completely.

Not saying i don't have any real friends who don't seem to be talking to me to get specific, but i just seem to get a lot of the other types. I'm really glad to have the friends i have.

It's just starting to be a bit stressing too, worrying a bit all the time that people that i know might suddently find a mate and disappear almost entirely. I know not everyone is likely to do that, but many who i thought would never do that ended up doing it...

I know the "easy" solution could be to get a mate too or something... But bleh. I just can't really see that happening right now. I'm still that weird traveling techie rather random non-sexual dragon type thing. I don' think i've ever seen someone who would be happy with just that. And i don't want to force-change myself, or fake being something i'm not.

What i'd want anyway is more like a "trusted teammate" or something like that, not really a "boyfriend/girlfriend" type thing.

Not someone who would find me sexy and want to kiss me and blah, but someone who would want to travel with me and and participate in insane plans and with who i could just completely stop defensive behaviors with and stuff. Someone i could curl up against and just feel good, without having them want more...

But blah... Can't say i've ever seen someone who wanted just that and not more. But on the other side, it would be odd if i really was the only one like that.

Anyway, i should be getting ready for work instead of writing that.

Whee... More paint stuff.