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I absolutely hate this. I never had so many people i could talk to. But i never felt so unable to say what i need to...

... i need to scream something out. I need someone to hear it. Everyone to hear it. But i don't know how, when, where...

I feel pressure rising behind it, and not being able to get that out is... frustrating. More than frustrating. Makes me want to smash stuff.

... and if i explode, it's going to be a huge mess...

And why do i end up getting scared and start talking about computers or something stupid every single time i could say it. I don't want to do that. I'm trying not to...

Why isn't there someone with just the right questions. Someone to force me to say it. Someone that will not let me avoid it. I want to say it. I really do.

Blah... There's so many way to understand things. Hate that. How do you get to people to know what you mean... 6.7 billion different meanings...

And that's not just 3am stuff.

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... sorry for being weird ...